Being a Mom is … realizing you haven’t updated your Mom blog.
It’s been a few months since I last did any update and it’s because of one thing really—my kids.
Gone are the days when I had all the free time in the world to do what I wanted. You hear it all the time that kids will take up your time, but those words really don’t make an impact on you until after the kids come.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not trying to say that I regret having children. Never. Having kids was one of my biggest goals in MY life. I wanted to become a mom and was aware of the obstacles and challenges. I might have done things differently, sure. Explore the world a bit more and really enjoy the freedom that I did not realize I had (of course being poor kind of limits any freedom you can do). Start my business when I was younger so I really had that business experience. There’s a lot of things I wish I did before my kids, but never in my life will I ever say I don’t want them.
I do wish I was aware of what sort of time I would lose out on by having kids in my life. Being a mom is still new. I’ve been doing this gig for three years now so I have some moderate experience… and then baby number two came and yeah. Still adjusting. But I really want to talk more about motherhood and the life of being a mom like all those popular mom blogs.
I just … don’t know where to begin.
I suppose I could mention that the horrible nights of my son not being able to sleep is long over. I think that might explain my absence since it was a struggle dealing with his tummy issues. He sleeps like a champion now and eats like one, too.
I could talk about my son and his inability to eat anything I make him. How the hell do parents feed their kids? Mine once liked nuggets and now he doesn’t. He once liked ravioli and now he doesn’t. He has such a picky appetite that there are nights he doesn’t eat anything at all until the next morning. I’m trying to figure out if there is some magic wand that I wave to get my son to eat the food I cook.
A struggling challenge I encounter a lot these days is balancing two kids and keeping self-employed. The struggle there was a nightmare with two up until we finally bought a super hand-me-down couch to sit upstairs in the living room. Sure, it’s hideous and has the ugliest floral print I have ever seen, but my god did it save me. Now I can have my children in the living room so I can work…when they let me.
Perhaps the biggest thing to talk about is that my son is going to be a year old soon. One year. Can you believe that? With my first, it felt like time passed incredibly slow. I lavished and ate up every single second of his babyhood. I loved it and hated it but mostly loved it. With the second one, I seem to have gotten over baby stages. I knew right when he was born that I would no longer sleep for three months. Now that he sleeps like a champion, I can finally stop being a zombie. Of course there is the issue of his mobility becoming a new problem. Curse their figuring out they can move…
So yeah, that has been my life for the last few months of radio silence. I was still adjusting to being a mom of two. Now that I’ve finally found a balance, I guess you can expect a lot more of me trying to explain this new life of mine that I’m bumbling through but loving every moment.
I mean if it doesn’t bore you to read… cause it sure does feel like I wrote a bunch of nothing.